Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Falling Into You

Letters We Never SentHi...

I know I shouldn't start this, but there is no change to turn back time. I don't know what I am looking for since I have everything in my own. Happy life surrounding by my angels. Then in one point I let you in, and I thought I can allow you in just in my mind, because my heart has already full of love of my life. Then time passing by, you gave such a different color in my days, and I dont know when, but then I found you have already occupied small place in my heart.

I enjoyed (still) every little chats we have, every little calls, every little messages, definitely I enjoy everything about you. Thinking about you in my busy days is a nice thing to do. It is very tempting for me showering you with all attentions that I can.

When I missed you, my heart is full of happiness and sadness in the same time, remembering our last meet, looked deeply into your eyes, felt such a soft warm feeling flowing into my heart. I know you'll never be mine, not because you don't want me or I don't want you, but because I've already had a life. And I dont know what I am doing now with you. I just don't want to think about it, all I want is enjoying every seconds I can have with you. Only in that way, I feel I have you.

If I have enough courage, then I want you to know, that I am falling for you. I love you...
You'll never know how deep you go into my heart. Because for you, maybe it is just for fun since you know from beginning that you cant have me. And to make it easier for us, I keep telling you (and my self) that all of this just attentions without intention whereas my heart savagely betray me...