
I love you. I love you. I love you. You're the sunshine that dries my tears, the fire that makes my heart dance, and the very bestest friend anyone can ever ask for. Yes, we fight a lot but if you notice I only start them when you try to talk about how this girl or that girl is so pretty. Or even how so and so is your best friend. Yes, I'm jealous. Yes, I'm mean to you but that's only because I wanna push you away before well... I have to see with someone else. That's mean of me though. I want to see you happy. Just... I wish you were happy with me. Idk. I just love seeing you smile...
You've been there whenever you can and... I appreciate that. As you're reading this, you're probably rolling your eyes or... confused. Or just taking it as it. I have no clue. Then again, I will never send this letter to you. But... just remember... Whenever I laugh at you and we just walk together, talking about anything in the world... I'm so full of hope and joy I could just float off the earth, taking you by hand with me.
The really weird thing tho... I feel so complete when you're here with me. I feel as if I can take anything on and as long you're here with me... I'll live through everything with strength and a smile on my face.
Call me stupid, lame, and inconsiderate. But... I just wish you knew how I feel. If I did send this letter, the relationship I already have with someone would die an unholy messy way. I feel so bad. I love you both. Wow. This is the first time I've said I loved either of you.
Right now I'm crying and I hope I feel this pain lasts forever, so I can remember how horrible and unfair of a person I am to both of you. Even you have to admit how much the person I'm with right now is more perfect for me than almost anyone else. He's so caring, honest, sweet, and just the kind of person I need. I don't deserve him anymore than I deserve you. Either way... You are both so much stronger in goodness than I could ever hope to even attain.
I try to forget about you in his eyes and whenever I'm in his arms.... but I can't.
I love you, friend. I will forever. If you ever need arms to hold your sorrow in and support you, I'll be there. If you ever need to talk about anything at all, I'll be there. If you ever need a friend, I'll be there. If you ever need a partner for life... I'll be there. No matter how many times the leaves will fall from the trees we pass by eveeryday... I will love you more than either of us can ever comprehend. Dear God, I wish I could actually send this to you. I don't care if I have to watch you fall in love with a friend or a stranger, as long as you're happy... I am. It's that simple. I am more attached to you than appropriate. Just... maybe one day, you'll see me on the sidelines, waiting for you with a hesitant smile and open arms. Thank you for being the anchor I have needed in this storm in the sea of life. Thank you for being the water to wash away my memories and hatred. Thank you so much...
I love you more than you'll ever love me. But maybe... maybe one day it will be good enough.